Monday, February 27, 2012

And so I end this chapter

Usually when I'm reading a book, I get excited to get to the end of a chapter because that means I can take a break from reading. But this time, I am not excited for the chapter to end, I feel too bittersweet to pin point what I feel exactly. Coming into this trip I was scared to be gone for so long, to miss people, to be nervous people would forget about me while I was gone, but all those thoughts came in as fast as they left. When I finally let myself immerse into this culture and country, I finally let go of all the petty things that didn't matter anymore. I'm not sure if that was because I was so removed from all situations or because I finally let myself be a blank slate.

I come from a latino family (obviously) and I thought I had an idea of what it would be like to come here but my ideas were completely thrown to the side and new ideas were created. I learned what it was like to be immersed in such a rich culture that I know I would never find in Seattle. I finally was able to fit in physically (people actually look like me here!) But most importantly, I was able to connect with family/friends that I never would have known without coming here. I learned about who the other half of me was without trying to put a label on myself. When you're in a group of friends or even with your family, you are always given a title or you are the person that represents __blank___ but here, I didn't get a tittle or anything I was someone new, ready to be discovered. I didn't come to Venezuela for the intention to become someone different or to 'find' myself but joke was on me...I did become someone different. My eyes were changed therefore everything I see and saw is changed. I have always been a home body and that was a big obstacle for me traveling but I am proud of myself for pushing through something I knew would be so wonderful.

Everything in this country has touched me in some way. I am so grateful for this experience. I keep thinking when will be my next adventure but for now, I should save some money and then I will re-visit this drive. I want to thank all the people of Venezuela, the dogs, the stores, the yummy fruit, and the delicious food for enriching me in your culture. You have changed who I am into a person I want to be. I will never forget your kindness and flavors you bestowed upon me. And to my readers, thank you for coming along with me to Venezuela. You are the people who helped me get to where I am today, without the support i'd be too scared.

Well Venezuela, until next time, you will remain in my heart forever.


“Be the change you want to see in the world.”

-Mahatma Gandhi

1 comment:

  1. Thanks for updating us via blog.... Your writing is so true to you, and so expressive. I've loved reading it. Excited to see you but more excited FOR you and what you learned on your journey. See you soon little buddy!!